The signal that changed lives

It was just another busy evening for the hundreds of other people in the busy railway station of secunderabad, but for Toshi, it was not just another evening. She was about to make a journey, a journey that would take her to the untamed world, where she would be out of the protective shell that she had been living till then. Toshi was about to come to a new state, a new place altogether where she knew no-one and was about to make new friends. She was about to come to Bhubaneswar, the capital of Odisha, to pursue her engineering in the Institute Of Technical Education And Research (ITER). The college was not much renowned, but was quite popular in the eastern India.

                      Toshi was pretty excited about her going to this college. She like all others had many plans, had seen and lived many dreams before this day actually came. And now when she was on the verge of going to live her dreams, she felt nervous.  strange feeling sunk in her which she never thought she would feel. It struck her mind that for four years from now, she would be away from her home, her family. She realized how much she would miss them. How much she would miss her mother's care and dad's love. Her eyes became moist, but then here we are talking about Toshi, she isn't that weak. Holding back her emotions, with a smile on her face and a lot of dreams she was ready to set on a journey of life. 

                                                    Soon the train that was about to take her to the city where she would live her dreams came and she got into it. Coming near the door and standing there to wave goodbye to her family, she once again felt that strange feeling, but then she had to be strong, cause now she was a big girl. The station master cleared the signal for the train to leave and the signal turned green from red, within a moments notice the train was taking her away, away from her family and into a new world, a new place where she would live her life on her own terms. 

                                       Institute Of Technical Education And Research

This is what the was written on the gate. This place, this name was what she was  going to be associated with for the next four years and even after that this name would mean a lot to her. The college life of four years was far better than what she thought it would be like. She had friends, friends that were now a part of her life and a very important reason for her existence. They all loved her, and so did she. But then the end was approaching. The end to all of this. the time when it was time to return back to where she came from. To return back to her own place, her home. But the question that remained was whether she was going home or going from home?? Cause in these four years things had changed. She had been a part of this place and these people, her friends had become a part of each other's life. It was now difficult to imagine a single day without them. But she had to, cause life never stops, it has to move on. Finally the day came, when she had to leave the place and go back. She was now four years elder than when she came here, but that is just what she didnt want to happen, she wanted these times to just come back once again. She wanted to live those memories again and again. It was all the same for her, history repeated itself. Four years ago, she had been through the same. But there was only one difference. The last time she had been on the train, there were people on the other side, who were worried for her, who loved her, who cared for her and then those who expected her to do something good in her future. But this time the scenario was different, on the other side there were a bunch of crazy people whom she called as friends forever, people who were unconditionally in love with her, who didn't actually knew to define care, respect, expectation but still they had all of it in them.  

This time Toshi didnt had to hold back her emotions, she didnt have to be strong, cause she couldn't be stron in front of a crazy bunch of people who loved her unconditionally and were willing to do anything she said, if she would just not go and stay with them for some more time. The signal again changed from red to green like the last time, and yet again she was taken away. But this parting seemed more painful. As the train caught up speed so did the legs of all those who  had come to see her off. They still were fighting a lost battle, and still wanted her to stay. But she couldn't, cause she had to go. All of us have to go, one day or the other. And so she went. Leaving behind all the memories. 

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Hello everyone, either you have been tagged in this post or you haven't been tagged. Now for those who haven't been tagged, the above is a real story. Its about one of my seniors Toshi di. And for all those who have been tagged, you again maybe either my seniors or my friends. Well I have a lots of things to say to both of you.

To all my seniors,

We have a different world of ours when we are with our friends.Where nothing but only we matter. Love is all that is prominently seen. Care is the only attitude displayed. Laughter is the only noise created. And emotions, attachment, well these things are surreal. The whole world is left behind, all the worries, all the concerns seems vague and all we have in mind is each one of us. I have yet two more years to go but in these two years that I have spent with my friends and you all, have been the best of my life. I have a dream, I always want to see you all the way you are now. So close, so emotionally attached, so much of unconditional love you all have for one another, it's something I really admire. The college, well it may have given you or not given you anything. There might have been times when you have felt like abusing all the administrative staffs f the college, but then just look around, you have got the best bunch of handpicked people around you who complete you in every sense. Well I am pretty sure starting from the very 1st year, the summer vacations might have seemed too boring without friends, and this particular line, "kana kariba be 3 months" might have been asked to all your friends. Many groups might have been formed, some on still exist, others exist but members dont. Some groups may have been again sub-divided into subgroups. Many might have had fallen in love, and for many love is something which happened every other day. And academics, well we all know what and how the system works. But all things kept apart, these four years was the only four years in our life when we neither lived for someone, nor lived for ourselves, we all lived each and every moment of our lives with someone. And that feeling, is priceless.

After you all go, the college would not be the same, well nothing much would change in the college though, but for us, things wont be the same. The amount of love you all have showered upon us, we are all lucky to have you. The best seniors I have ever had. And believe me, Toshi di, Nirrlipta di, Saswat dada.....and to all those whom I couldn't go to see off, it was too difficult to hold back the emotions and the feelings. I somehow managed to be strong, but every instance I incurred a loss. A loss which will never be made up to. You all are superb people, so lovely, hope you stay this way forever. 

To all my friends,

Well there is nothing that lasts forever. But yes we make it last for long, and then longer, and then longer again. That day in station, I was standing and looking at her, at Tosi di, she was talking to one of her friends, when suddenly from the corner of my eye I caught the change of light from red to green and then the train gave a jerk. As soon as it moved, tears started rolling down her cheeks. I just could stand back and think of one thing, so many years spent together, so many memories they might have had, so many happy moments, so many fights, and then a simple change of light ended it all for them. It hurt, I sat down on one of the benches. It was something new to me, a feeling which I would have felt two more years later, but I was feeling it now, along with the people I had come with. I promised myself something then and there, one thing is for sure, I haven't got much time left with me. Two years isn't enough for me to be content. I would want to live with you guys forever. But then that wouldn't be possible. So let's not waste a single second from now on. I know all of us have made some mistakes at a point of time. All of us might have hurt each other at some point of time. All of us might have had ego clashes at some point of time. And I know I have behaved so stupidly at times, have hurt you a thousand times and have been an asshole at times, and me really sorry for all of it. But then we have got very less time with us. Two more years will pass away like the two years that just passed or even quicker. One thing which I would never want, is when we go to see off each other, no one would have any regret of not doing anything. Lets buckle up, live life to the fullest and enjoy life like no other. Love you guys. I would have been nothing without your love and support.