That day when you had tears in your eyes and I left home I didn't know that why were you so emotional. I never realized that the world out here would be never a bed of roses. It was a long time ago, when I set forth on a journey, a path that led me away from you, and I never realized that what I felt to be too melodramatic to say at that point of time, would be the one thing that I would run upto to you and say you for a thousand times or maybe even more, but then I don't think I will ever be able to. I just cant write it down and hope that someday you read this and know that I love you.
Maa..I love you. I have always loved you. And now after all these years I am tired. I am tired of dealing with things, keeping things from you and never letting you know that how weak I am, but then they say that you get to know everything, right? You know that I miss you, you know that I still yearn for the feeling I get when i lie down in your laps and you caress my hair. It makes me feel that nothing in the world matters anymore. Nothing in the world can hurt me anymore. I want to run upto you, hug you and let you know how much I love you. I know you know that I love you, but then I just want to say it to you. I just want to get it out, and I just want to hear myself say it, because I know that I have never said it out aloud.
Maa people say no one can love me the way you do. And now I realize how true they were and how foolish I was to think otherwise. I did make mistakes and you punished me, you punished me in all ways I could have been punished and you had every right to, but then every time at the end you gave me a chance to correct myself. But things are different here. Now when I face the reality, your love for me seems to be like a reset button which I could hit anytime and things would revert back to the normal between the two of us.
Maa there were numerous times when I didn't like what you wanted me to do or what you didn't want me to do, but then it always was for my good. Frankly speaking maa, I am tired. I just want to come home and be with you. I don't want to be out here anymore. There is nothing like being with you, being pampered, being taken care of. I miss that feeling.
Maa there are a lot of things that I want to say to you, a lot of things that I want to let out because keeping them from you hurts, and I can't take it anymore. I know there were a lot of times when I have let you down. There are numerous things that I have done that has hurt you and you cried. And believe me it made me feel disgusted with myself to see you like that. But then maa, I never intended to hurt you. I just did things without knowing the consequences even if at some point of time you warned me not to. There even were times when I could do anything to help you out of some trouble or take the pain away from you because no matter how much I wanted to I just didn't know how to. There were a numerous times when I snapped at you without thinking twice about it and yet you never complained. How could you take so much and not say a word?? How could you love me so much? I could never find an answer to this and I never will, for all I know even when the world turns upside down, even then you will always love me and I will always know that I can rely on you.
Maa...I miss you.
Maa..I love you.
Maa..I love you. I have always loved you. And now after all these years I am tired. I am tired of dealing with things, keeping things from you and never letting you know that how weak I am, but then they say that you get to know everything, right? You know that I miss you, you know that I still yearn for the feeling I get when i lie down in your laps and you caress my hair. It makes me feel that nothing in the world matters anymore. Nothing in the world can hurt me anymore. I want to run upto you, hug you and let you know how much I love you. I know you know that I love you, but then I just want to say it to you. I just want to get it out, and I just want to hear myself say it, because I know that I have never said it out aloud.
Maa people say no one can love me the way you do. And now I realize how true they were and how foolish I was to think otherwise. I did make mistakes and you punished me, you punished me in all ways I could have been punished and you had every right to, but then every time at the end you gave me a chance to correct myself. But things are different here. Now when I face the reality, your love for me seems to be like a reset button which I could hit anytime and things would revert back to the normal between the two of us.
Maa there were numerous times when I didn't like what you wanted me to do or what you didn't want me to do, but then it always was for my good. Frankly speaking maa, I am tired. I just want to come home and be with you. I don't want to be out here anymore. There is nothing like being with you, being pampered, being taken care of. I miss that feeling.
Maa there are a lot of things that I want to say to you, a lot of things that I want to let out because keeping them from you hurts, and I can't take it anymore. I know there were a lot of times when I have let you down. There are numerous things that I have done that has hurt you and you cried. And believe me it made me feel disgusted with myself to see you like that. But then maa, I never intended to hurt you. I just did things without knowing the consequences even if at some point of time you warned me not to. There even were times when I could do anything to help you out of some trouble or take the pain away from you because no matter how much I wanted to I just didn't know how to. There were a numerous times when I snapped at you without thinking twice about it and yet you never complained. How could you take so much and not say a word?? How could you love me so much? I could never find an answer to this and I never will, for all I know even when the world turns upside down, even then you will always love me and I will always know that I can rely on you.
Maa...I miss you.
Maa..I love you.
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